This is an old image I made years ago, about me saying NO to the Portland Cult 

I'm an old woman now. I look like old woman.

But I'm still young at heart. I'm still at it. I still hope for the best. I still hope that somebody or a bunch of somebodies will save us.

I still pray to God in Heaven. 

I still haven't changed my mind. I still have the same message: 

Stay sane. Stay healthy. Do good. Save us. 

Since 2017, not much have happened. I've been mostly sitting at home, gardening and studying music theory, or sound theory, and studying the Cult. Trying to reverse-engineer the Cult's way of working. And my own personal experience - what happened since 1996, when I was invited to Portland, Oregon by the Cult. 

As of now, 2024, I still haven't read works of Sigmund Freud and Carl Gustav Jung. This stuff is completely non-readable and non-understandable to me. 

I research AROUND it. I try to connect the dots.   I skim, I skip the unnecessary details and try to see HOW it works. Try to see the Cult's METHOD. 

I put events on timelines and maps. I  usually look at three elements: Content, Structure and Trajectory. Breaking the CHAOS down into these elements helps me to see how CHAOS works. 

I'm a linear thinker, I studied medicine. In three languages. Polish, German (in Switzerland) and English (in the USA). My thinking goes from point A to point B to point C. 

The Cult's way of thinking is completely different - the members of the Freudian/Jungian Cult/Sect/Family are non-linear thinkers. The Cult operates on loose associations, "synchronicities" and magical/ritualistic thinking. 

Freudian/Jungian ideas are NOT UNDERSTANDABLE to most people- the Jungian/Freudian methods hit us, the linear-thinker in the head, so to speak. We're become dumbfounded. The result is Chaos - people start fighting, not even knowing why. "They hurt what they don't understand" - that's a line from the film "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse," the film made by the Cult to create an anti-police provocation in Portland, Oregon, that lead to a tragedy. 

To recap: Sigmund Freud (1856 - 1939), Carl Gustav Jung, (1875 - 1961), were psychiatrists, Austro-Hungarian and Swiss, respectively. But they worked in the field of psychoanalysis and psychotherapy. That's a very different field than medicine. 

The Leader/Guru of the Portland Jungian Cult was said to be the successor of Carl Gustav Jung. In 1996, when the Cult tried to lure me in, the Cult told me that the Leader/Guru of Portland Cult invented everything since 1961, the Sixties, the drug "culture," all psychological, biological and cultural warfare. And even technological. 

The Leader/Guru of the Portland Cult recently passed away. But still, I'm afraid to even say his name. The Cult, his followers are very intense. The Cult retaliates heavily against anybody who says anything critical about their Leader/Guru. Even grinning was not allowed. The Cult was/is a totalitarian regime, working on imposing a totalitarian regime on all of us. Even in 2016, twenty years after my arrival to Portland, Oregon the Cult tried to make me "apologize" to the Leader/Guru for what I said in 1996, two decades earlier. I actually never spoke with the Leader/Guru directly. All communications went through his assistants and other Cult members. It was very scary to learn in 2016 that the Leader/Guru still held a grudge. And that the Cult was still retaliating. 

The Cult threaten to "drag" me to apologize. Now, after the Leader/Guru of the Portland Cutl passed away, the Cult can't "drag" me in front of him to apologize. Now, after the Leader/Guru has passed away, one things is off the list. But, still, the Cult can do horrible things to me, as their retaliation. I'm scared. But I want to say stuff about the Cult, warn people about the Cult's ways. 

The Cult is on the top of the BAMBOOZLEMENT industry - a lot of people work for the Cult, perhaps even without knowing who is creating the strategies, on top. 

Some things the Cult was saying in the late 1990s, are now coming to pass, unfortunately.  The weird talks about "aliens" and "UFOs" (all invented by the Cult). "Wokism" vs "Anti-woke" (both sides invented by the Cult.) Pushing psychedelics. 

Don't do psychedelics!!!!!!! Psychedelics are BAD for you. Psychedelics are a way of the Cult mass-poisoning people!  

And the Internet. Social isolation. We can be shown anything on the Internet, and we are supposed to believe it. 

When the Cult invited me to Portland, Oregon in 1996, the Internet was barely starting. I remember the Cult laughing that the Leader/Guru invented Google. The word "Google" and the idea. 

Now, years and decades later, I see how Google works. Some information is suppressed. While other information is pushed. Lots of information is contradictory and overwhelming. The internet is becoming more and more toxic. More nonsensical. More and more non-linear. Like the Cult. 

I'm used to going through a lot of information. I learned to go through a lot of material while I was studing medicine.  But, I 'm used to information that is organized and logical. Studying chaos is very difficult for me. 

I studied medicine in three languages. I graduated from medical school at the age of 24, in Poland. As a medical student, I was invited to medical internships in Germany and Switzerland, and then worked there as a doctor. After the Cult invited me to Portland, Oregon in 1996, I didn't want to work for the Cult. I wanted to be a medical doctor again, old school, a regular doctor, a mainstream physician. I passed the medical accreditation exams in the USA in 1997, ECFMG (Educational Commission for Foreign Medical Graduates). I passed these exams on the first try. I was ready to have a medical career in the USA. 

But I couldn't find a job. I never worked as a medical doctor in the USA. I got cancelled. 

Now, I'm an elderly woman. I never made much money. I still grieve the loss of my medical career. But I'm still glad I refused to work for the Cult. 

Pill-pushers made a lot of money. A pill-pusher prescriber can make $300,000 a year or more. 

I only had one job in the USA, as a crisis responder in Portland, for 12 years. I made about $20 an hour. I'm still glad that I haven't worked for the Cult. Don't get me wrong - I always wanted to have a successful career. I wanted to be an orthopedic doctor. This was just the job for me. I like specifics. This is how  my career started. But, then, my career was derailed. 

The Cult wanted me to be an advertiser for pill-pushers, drug-pushers and psychedelic pushers. The Cult wanted me to be the "next Thomas Szasz and Stanislav Grof" - Austro-Hungarian psychiatrists who came to the USA and pushed strange ideas, reversing what is normal. And - pushing psychedelics. 

Psychedelics are BAD for you. There are many psychedelic pushers on the Internet. Don't listen to them. Psychedelics are a part of a destructive biological and psychological warfare. A part of the Cult's plan - mass de-popu-lation. 

I refused to participate in the Cult's destructive work. 

To me, being a  medical doctor requires a lot of knowledge, dedication and high moral standards. Do not harm, in Latin, "primum non nocere." 

And, most importantly, 

I believe in God in Heaven. I believe in the higher power. The higher power above us all.  

I believe that everything we do, adds up.  

I said NO. I refused to work for the Cult. 

You can say NO too. 

 In 2016 and 2017, I made internet pages. Mostly, because horrible stuff was coming up on the Internet when I Googled my name. And, I wanted to point out what the Cult was doing. I was hoping that somebody would see, understand and reconsider.  Somebody or a bunch of somebodies would stop the Portland, Oregon tragedy.

But my webpages and images don't come up on Google. I received no interest in my posts, not a single comment. The tragedy in Portland, Oregon is unfolding.. And, seemingly, everywhere else.  

But I'm still here. Still hoping. 

I'm still hoping and praying - No martial law. No camps. No mass de-popu-lation. No fake "alien" invasion. No bombings of volcanoes. No mass madness.  No war. 

Stay healthy. Stay sane. Save us. 

This page is about my Internet presence vs the other stuff. 

The other stuff - stuff I was showing up on the Internet in 2015 and 2016 when I Googled my name. 

And my Internet difficulties starting in 2015. Suddenly, I couldn't log into some places on the Internet. I couldn't log into my Paypal. I called Paypal customer service on the phone. The customer service couldn't fix it. I couldn't log into other websites - my health care account. Email, intermittently. Something strange was happening with my phone. The map search (getting directions where to drive) didn't work. For example, I was on a freeway, and the phone directions kept saying, "turn left, turn left." If I turned left, I would have fallen off the freeway. My bank card (a major bank) stopped working. I went to the bank, asking, what happened. The bank people didn't know, "we'll give you a new card." OK, but WHY wasn't my card was working....? 

And, when I was calling around - I was trying to get a lawyer to sue my former employer for co-producing the film "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" and using my name in it, blaming it. I couldn't find a lawyer. Every time I called, a young woman answered, a legal assistant. Huffing and puffing, telling me that the law firm doesn't take such cases. Asking, "are you the doctor"? But I didn't tell her that I was a doctor. 

The strange thing was, that the young female legal assistants that answered the phone sounded THE SAME. Perhaps, ALL legal assistants sound THE SAME. Or, can phone calls be REDIRECTED? 

In 2015 and 2016, I thought it was impossible. 

Now, as the digital nightmare unfolds, I can't help but wonder. 

Recently , it seems that.... the Internet took my house - my land parcel.  

I live in a little condo in the American Pacific Northwest. It's an HOA - A Homeowner's Association (condo). A non-profit organization, under American Law. 

But we're not allowed to meet in person. Our Association meetings are on the Internet, on Zoom. The participation is very low. There are a lot of elderly people in the complex who don't use this technology. Often, the "meetings" are mostly black screen. We start talking about something important, and we get muted. 

Last year, a man doing business in China showed up and demanded to sign e-signatures to him, to sign away our homeowners' voting rights to him and his private firm. Some emails regarding condo operations were sent from China. I protested. I was silenced, shamed and excluded from receiving any further updates from him. I don't even know what is the progress and status of his e-signatures. 

We are paying for a management company - a very strange management company.  Basic building maintenance isn't done. But, we are expected to "interact" with our neighbors, our fellow homeowners in the Association via an Internet Portal, some type of social media. 

DIGITAL NIGHTMARE. 

We bought a condo in an HOA hoping for a quaint neighborhood with a nice, neighborly atmosphere. 

The condo complex has a clubhouse. But instead of meeting in the clubhouse,  we must use the MACHINE the INTERNET to talk about our condo. 

How strange.

Are we taken over? By who? By the Internet? By BRICS? By India? By China? By the "Great Reset"? 

Just yesterday, I updated anti-virus software on our laptop. Something wasn't working right, so I called technical support. A man with a strong accent answered. He gave me to options - he could talk me through the process and I would take care of the anti-virus software glitch myself, or, he could TAKE CARE OF MY COMPUTER REMOTELY and do it himself. What?!!!!! 

Of course, chose option one - to talk me through. At the end of the conversation, I asked him, where he was from. I was very polite. I also have an accent. I just wanted to know, WHO and WHERE is handling my anti-virus software technical support. WHO and WHERE has the ability to ACCESS MY COMPUTER REMOTELY. 

He didn't tell me. He sounded offended. 

So, I don't even know 

WHO and WHERE is handling my anti-virus software - WHERE? India? Africa? 

I made this page, originally in 2015 and 2016, after I discovered some horrible content on the Internet when I Googled my name. The content was horrible. It was going on at the same time as I was being harassed directly. 

I made web pages hoping that my content would push our the gruesome stuff. I was hoping that Google's "algorithms" would find me. I read up on how to increase the chance to be listed by Google. I learned how to tag images. I even submitted my websites to a search engine registry. Still, almost none of my content showed up on Google. 

Subsequently, the Cult threatened me some more, so I stopped making web pages. 

I haven't looked at this page since I made it, until now, 2024. So, it's been about 8 or 9 years. 

Now, in 2024, I looked at the page and checked if the violent videos that showed up 8 or 9 years ago are still on Youtube. The horrible videos are still there !!!

How horrible!

Youtube should remove such horrible videos. 

I hear that many videos and channels are suspended or removed from Youtube for minuscule reasons. But Youtube keeps such violent videos?!!!

One page is not on the internet any more. In 2015 or 2016, there was a wordpress page, ellahoward. I don't remember the extension. There was nothing on the page. Just a starter. But I wondered what might show up. I looked at the registry and discovered that the page belonged to a public relation company in Gibraltar. That's a territory in the Mediterranean coast, near Spain. The company's page looked really strange. The image on the page looked like spilled blood. I took a screen shot.  

Then, I stopped Googling my name, or only Googled my name occasionally. 

Instead, I researched the Cult. How horrible the MACHINE, the Internet, is becoming more and more toxic. I read articles about harmful materials appearing on Tik-tok, or other platforms. I read about how people, including children, are lured in via chat-rooms or other social media. Sometimes children get severely bullied, or talked into doing dangerous or harmful things to themselves. 

We need to protect ourselves and the children from the DIGITAL NIGHTMARE. 

Stay sane. Do good. Save us.

.  Now, years and decades later, I understand what the Cult was saying in the late 1990s. 

The Cult was taking about "collapsing" "everything."

But, collapsing "everything" - what? 

All these years and decades, more and more people started keeping their digital materials on the "cloud." Photos, school notes, audio recordings, audio books, e-books, including text=books for school. 

What happens if the "cloud" gets turned off? If there's a martial law, or war, the Internet would likely be very limited or off. I rarely watch doomsday scenario videos. But recently, one of the famous former Fox News presenter came up. He was describing a horrific scenario that might happen. 

I lived through a martial law (military rule). When I was a high school student, martial law was suddenly imposed in Poland. It was 1981. 

Suddenly there were only two official newspapers left, other press was shut down. Phone conversations were monitored. No private gatherings were allowed. Some people were put in internment camps. It was horrible. 

1981 was way before the Internet. We had textbooks for school, hand-written notes. Book, paper-books to read. 

1981 martial law was horrible. There were shortages of food. Shortages of everything, including toilet paper. 

But not "everything" collapsed. We didn't have anything on a "Cloud" that was turned off and made unavailable to us. 

I hope and pray that there will be no war and no martial law. 

Stay sane. Stay healthy. Stay free. 

In the picture below, there are no people following the eagle. Just like I have no followers on the Internet. But I hope and pray that somebody or a bunch of somebodies might read my pages and take my message to heart. 

Be strong. Stay focused. Save us. 

Old content from 2015 & 2017 is below.

I decided to keep it here. 

I removed some of the links that no longer work. The content is repetitive. It was 2015, my first experience with putting things on the Internet. I thought that if I repeat words, Google would find the page and list it. That people would read it and react. And save Portland, Oregon from the provocations and the tragedy. I didn't know that Google can hide information - unlist it. These days, 2020s, it's called "shadow-banning." I occasionally look up what is happening in Portland, Oregon and what's going on with the "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" provocation. The provocation is still going. How horrible. 

I pray and hope that there will be no war, no camps, no martial law. 

Hi, I'm Ela Howard. This webpage is to document some of the death threats and harassment I've been subjected so far(I'm not going to get into the most gruesome content). And the weird and/or violent stuff that appeared on the internet at the same time.

I have been threatened to be "erased with no trace." I want to live. I'm trying to make a TRACE.

My other webpages/blogs are about what went on for years. My 12 years of work for Cascadia Behavioral Health in Portland Oregon where I was a civilian crisis response clinician going out with the police to respond to crisis calls... The death of James Chasse in the hands of the police on September 17, 2006... The gigantic provocation that followed... The "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" film (2013) where the officers who killed James Chasse smile and grimace, and... the I'm being presented as... somehow.... accountable for Chasse's death... Cascadia, my employer, co-produced the film. Besides forging the info in the film, there were years and years of misleading info in the media, forgeries of legal documents, including grand jury, 3 court cases and a federal investigation... The draining of taxpayers' money... to stage an anti-police provocation. 

In 2014, Cascadia fired me for "asking questions" and "poking around." No lawyer in Portland wanted to talk to me. I filed a court case myself, as self representing. Cascadia didn't respond. I filed for a default judgment. The judge dismissed my court case. 

Meanwhile, I was subjected to horrible harassment, including by my former co-workers. And more harassment and death threats. More death threats. My cries for help... It's a whole bunch of Long Stories.

My internet content in progress to make a TRACE.

ElaHowardPortland.com

ElaHowardPortland.wordpress.com

James Chasse was a Christian who was targeted since high school.  On September 17, 2006, he was walking from church. A police officer and a sheriff's deputy followed him, pursued him and threw him to the ground. Then they took him to jail. They subjected him to massive injuries and caused his death. James Chasse died. The officers were not charged. After the death of James Chase an intense wave of "social activism" was unrolled with blogs, news, demonstrations, lawsuits... Except... this "social activism" turned out to be a... pseudo-activism. It turned out to be a giant provocation ran by provocateurs and a network of ... a Cult who call themselves ".... ." (I redacted it in 2024, I'm too afraid of the Cult). The members of the"..... " Cult are in all kinds key positions, including Cascadia, my former employer. The "social activist" who led the "outcry" was actually... in cahoots with the culprits. The community was terrified by the horrifying way James Chasse was killed. The community was pitted against the police and vice versa. 

The same hand has been playing both sides. The same hand has been holding all the cards.

The pseudo-activists made the film "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse..." The film covers up for the real culprits and is filled with lies...  It incites violence.  It uses a song "go and grab your gu-n, you're always on the run, 'cause she's an alien..." "you have no rights at all...." "Go get this piece of scum." In the film a Nazi/Satanist/terrorist-inciting punk rock band "Poison Idea" is presented as "friends" of James Chasse.  The establishment and the media keeps from the public that pseudo-activist and the the producer of "Alien Boy," Jason Renaud is actually... the assistant to the president of the Oregon Euthanasia network. The media presents him as a "social activist" and an "expert" in police accountability.

And so it goes... The ones responsible for James Chasse's death keep being rewarded... More and demonstrations were staged, more and more violence, more and more tension between the community and the police...  Big $$$  money kept flowing to the pockets of choice...  Politicians were elected with the help of the pseudo-activists. The provocation kept growing and growing.... And it keeps growing...

Besides of what the provocateurs did to me, the Portland Provocation Machine has prepared a huge anti-Semitic smear. Right now, it's just sitting on the Internet.

It's horrible.  It's ugly.  Please don't believe it!!!

Please find my pages!  And Please find a way to save US all !!!!!!!!

PortlandSecret.wordpress.com is a summary of the comments I made in Portland press in early 2016.  My comments can be also found on the Oregonian webpage and on Discuss. Some of my comments were deleted.  There was no reaction.  And I was subjected to more grusome death threats and intimidation and told to "shut up."  I stopped making comments and stopped updating my webpages.  Now, in the spring of 2017, I gathered my courage to start writing again, even though so far I haven't got any response.

Now, slowly, I'm getting to the really bad stuff, that is, the description of the harassment.  First, the intro:

I came from Poland to Portland, Oregon in 1996 when I was 29. My name is Ela, but I made the page ellahoward.net under "Ella" to increase the possibility to be found by the search engines.

I also created a Facebook page Ela Howard Blogger for the same purpose; to document the horrible harassment I've been under.
My personal Facebook page is facebook.com/ela.howard.5
 - NOT the page with a profile picture where a woman jumps of the cliff and there's a diving platform over a frozen lake and there are remarks about death and being dead.  And the twitter account @ela_howard with some really weird tweets is not mine either. And the page that comes up about marijuana has nothing to do with me either. There might be also other weird things/accounts with the name Ela Howard. That's not me.

I apologize for any spelling mistakes.  I came to the USA as an adult. I speak and write Immigrant English.

It is scary for me to make this page. I might be subjected to more death threats. Every time I tried to speak up, I was threatened into silence. So I was silent.  But being silent has not saved me from being threatened even more. Silence doesn't help.

By the way, I'm not Jewish. But, for the purpose of harassing somebody, anything goes. Anybody who was identified as Jewish during World War II in Europe could be harassed and targeted. I was even harassed for having a "Jewish accent." I don't. But, it doesn't matter. Anybody can be targeted this way

Nobody wants to help me. Everybody I talked to either laughed me off, or/and discouraged me for "going after" Cascadia and the whole deception.  Everybody told me to "relax," or to leave town and"go into hiding."  I don't know where to go.  I don't have the means to flee. 

In 2014, Cascadia hired a lawyer, a "workplace mediator" under the pretense to help my supervisor Barb Snow (sister of Kate Snow, NBC anchor) to relate better"  to me as an employee. However, the lawyer used the time that was supposed to be "mediation" with me to intimidate me with a death reference - while talking to me, this "lawyer" showed me a picture of a cake decorated with gravestones my Cascadia supervisor brought to work. Instead of "workplace mediation," the "lawyer" was trying to provoke me. Fortunately, I didn't respond to the provocation. Subsequently, in November 2014, Cascadia fired me. 

In 2015, I I filed a Civil Rights complaint with Portland Civil Rights division of Bureau of Labor and Industries against my former employer Cascadia. The BOLI investigator who spoke with me on the phone acted as if she couldn't understand follow the conversation.  Even though I submitted a detail questionnaire she should have read before the conversation, she acted as if she had never heard of the death of the James Chasse, the years of activism, lawsuits and the Federal investigation that had been on the news for 9 years.  She couldn't understand the meaning of Cascadia co-producing an ultra-provocative film "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" and putting my name in. She told me that Cascadia submitted a 2 inch thick file documenting my wrongdoings and that she was going to dismiss my case. I told her that the documentation was submitted by Cascadia was forged.  I told her how the Cascadia lawyer - "workplace mediator" treated me.  The investigator told me, "but Cascadia said the lawyer was respectable."  BOLI dismissed my case.

I had an interview with Portland BOLI investigator on December 28, 2015.

I called it a “Cake Day." It is because of a coincidence - my interview with Portland BOLI investigator was on the day BOLI sized financial assets of the bakery Sweet Cakes as their fine for not baking a wedding cake for a lesbian couple.  BOLI awarded $135,000 to the lesbian couple - a payout from the bakery who refused to bake the cake.

But BOLI dismissed my. A complaint of an employee who's name was used by the employer in a provocation film. 

After Cascadia fired me in 2014, I immediately started being subjected to gruesome acts of intimidation on the street and in public places.  Throughout 2015 (this is when I first noticed them) there were violent videos appearing in my browser when I googled my name. I just googled my name. Like the one, with the title "ELA Project." It depicts a car crash, seemingly fatal,  The text talks about death and shooting.  The song goes, "we like to smoke weed, we like to have fun..." then the car crash, and later, a kid beats up another kid.  When I click on this video, another list of videos appeared  One, also called "Ela Project" is about "Hitler preparing for a fight." It depicts boys talking about Hitler, using heavy anti-Semitic slurs, saluting Hitler and engaging in a fight with a Jewish boy. Another video "Schindler's List" starts with music, but then progresses into a fight and stabbing of a Jewish boy.  And some other videos, really weird and scary ones.

In the summer of 2015, somebody stuck a piece of paper in my mailbox that said "Ela Project x." Nothing else.  I didn't know what to think of it. I've been under harassment for a long time. I didn't know what to do about about the "Ela Project x" letter, so I threw it into recycling.  But then more and more direct harassment kept happening. I looked at the videos and discovered that "ELA" on the internet means English Language and Arts project.  The project is for kids.  But... there were some extremely violent videos on it. 

September 17, 2015 there was a "night of rage" demonstration, commemorating the anniversary when James Chasse was killed in Portland, Oregon. September 17 is the day of the American Constitution, the best constitution ever. 

September 17, 2015 was the ninth anniversary of the death of James Chasse, the man the film "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" is about, the film where the filmmakers/producers used my name for their fictionalized crisis responder character and covered up for my employer Cascadia. In the "Alien Boy" Cascadia , the behavioral health/mental health agency is not mentioned. James Chasse was Cascadia client. He had a case manager and a medical doctor who were paid to provide care for him. But they aren't in the film. 

 The filmmakers cast "Ela Howard" character as a wrongdoer. None of this makes sense. 

The film triggered a whole wave of unrest in Portland. The community member and the police were pitted against each other. People suffered and died.  There were attacks on police officers. The provocateurs took the film to festivals and internationally. 

Since the death of James Chasse on September 17, 2006 instead of celebrating the Constitution, the provocateurs made the kids and grown-ups in Portland demonstrate AGAINST the country. The provocateurs stage demonstrations that include burning the American Flag. How horrible. 

Cascadia Behavioral Health, my former employer, has co-produced the film "Alien Boy" and set me up as a target. The main producer is Jason Renaud, who for years has been presented as an "activist" in Portland, but really, he is an Assistant to the President of the Oregon Euthanasia network "Compassion and Choices." But all this is kept behind the curtain.  My co-workers in Cascadia who set me up as a target in the "Alien Boy/ Alien Girl" provocation are a part of a Cult called "......." with headquarters in Switzerland and outposts all over the world, including Portland, Oregon. Members of the "......." Cult go all over the world, focusing on war zones and places of conflict. In Portland, the "......." Cult members hold key positions in many crucial agencies, but it's kept behind the curtain too.  The director of "Alien Boy" is Brian Lindstrom, who made the film together with his famous wife Cheryl Strayed who is famous for shooting up heroin and having ultra-promiscuous sex, and eating human remains (human ashes) on camera and... walking the Pacific Crest Trail, writing a memoir "Wild" and having a movie made, under the same title, "Wild." Cheryl Strayed is presented as a "guru" who preaches that she had learned her life lessons from shooting up heroin.

Cheryl Strayed really should be famous for making a provocation film that conceals how James Chasse really died. In her film "Alien Boy," Cheryl Strayed presented the Portland Satanist/Nazi/terrorist band as "friends of James Chasse." Alien Boy/Alien Girl song directs its followers to "go grab a gun" and chase after Aliens and go "go get this piece of scum" (the "Alien").  In Portland Oregon, this is considered "social activism."  The "Alien Boy" filmmakers collected tax-deductible donations.

In her work, Cheryl Strayed collaborates with Portland terrorism guru Chuck Palahniuk, author of "Fight Club," a novel that was made into a movie.  The "....."  Cult had used the work of Chuck Palahniuk as their "blueprint". "......"  is a network of ultra-rich Cultists/Occultists with networks all over the world where they "fish" for victims (like me), patsies and young angry men to lure them into their provocations."....." Cult is based on the works of Sigmund Freud and Carl Gustav Jung. 

The "Ela Howard scene" in in the film Alien Boy is dated September 15 - the date when Nazi Germany announced their "racial exclusion laws" in 1935 under Hitler.  I'm not Jewish, but apparently, for the purpose for "Hunt after Aliens," the hunters/provocateurs can target whoever they want. 

September 15 1935 marked the date in Germany where anybody could be targeted as "Jewish." Somebody who's grandparent was Jewish, or something like that. People who didn't even know that they had Jewish ancestry. 

When somebody is targetted - anything goes - I've been subjected to a "hunt" - intimidated on the street with horrible slurs.  Weird objects were put on my yard - rotten meat and excrement in plastic bags, a dead animal (seemed like a road kill), broken pieces of a doll.... stuff was smeared on my door - a brown substance - excrement or blood.  There were weird signs and numbers written on my sidewalk. At first, I thought it was just kids playing, but then I started researching and it seems like these signs could have been the Nazi occult writings called "runes." Only last year I realized that the number "88" - the number that was written several times on the sidewalk outside the house where I used to live - in Nazi code means "Heil Hitler."  When I started doing my research in 2015 I started discovering one thing after another. There were weird "ela howard" things all over the internet, including women that sort-of looked like me, with references to death, or some gruesome stuff.  There was an "ellahoward.com" webpage that had no real content in it, and the owner was an advertising and marketing firm in Gibraltar (that's Spain) that has a red liquid that looks like spilling blood as their intro.

I want to live. 

And if I don't, I want to make a trace. 

I will work on creating more pages and images. I hope that somebody will notice. 

Maybe I'll manage to push out/squish the scary stuff.  I sure hope so.